So. yeah.
I'm at wake-a-thon...
I wish i was at home.
I miss mark.
He's my favourite.
I love him to death..
I hate school computers...
they have myspace blocked
and they have facebook blocked now too.
it is gay
alll i can go on are like these and messaging sites...
it sucks massive.
I miss mark
I feel bad i got mad at him yesterday....

 1. If I were a month I would be: October.
2. If I were a day of the week I would be: Saturday
3. If I were a time of day I would be: 11:11pm
4. If I were a planet I would be: Saturn
5. If I were a sea animal I would be: Dolphin
6. If I were a direction I would be: South
7. If I were a piece of furniture I would be: a pillow.
8. If I were a sin I would be: Lust
9. If I were a historical figure I would be: I dont even know:(
10. If I were a liquid I would be: lemonade or iced tea.
11. If I were a stone, which would I be: uhh. i dunno.  
12. If I were a tree, I would be: an evergreen
13. If I were a bird, I would be: A burrowing owl.
14. If I were a tool, I would be: A screwww!
15. If I were a flower/plant, I would be: an orchid!
16. If I were a kind of weather, I would be: A thunderstorm.
17. If I were a musical instrument, I would be: Drums
18. If I were an animal, I would be: a tiger...
19. If I were a color, I would be: turquoise
20. If I were an emotion, I would be: love...
21. If I were a vegetable, I would be: A Cucumber.
23. If I were an element, I would be: Water.
24. If I were a car, I would be: A pretty one.
25. If I were a song, I would be: Falling Away- Marion Raven
26. If I were a movie, I would be directed by: Steven Speilberg
27. If I were a book, I would be written by: JK. Rowling
28. If I were a food, I would be: A graham cracker.
29. If I were a place, I would be: a house.
30. If I were a material, I would be: satin.
31. If I were a taste, I would be: sour
32. If I were a scent, I would be: tangerine
33. If I were a word, I would be: idiot.
34. If I were a body part I would be: neck
35. If I were a facial expression I would be: lonely
36. If I were a subject in school I would be: english
37. If I were a cartoon character I would be: the witch in sleeping beauty....
38. If I were a shape I would be a: triangle

Best, Worst, Last, First, Today, Tomorrow, Favorites, and Current.

BEST
1. Male friend: Mark.
2. Female friend: Keeley
3. Vacation: uuum. sooon to be italy
where's 4?
5. Day of the week: uuum. none so far..
6. Food: Strawberry Shortcake.

LAST
1. Person you saw: my mom and dad
2. Talked to on the phone: mom
3. Hugged: grandma
4. IM: Mark

TODAY
1. What are you doing now: This, talking to Mark, listening to music and thinking...
2. Tonight: maybe the phone..
3. Wearing: jeans, hoodie, t-shirt. tanktop. bra. socks. undies.
4. What did you eat for lunch: nothing.
5. Better than yesterday: not really theyre about the same in shittyness...

TOMORROW
1. Is: Wakeathon...
2. Got any plans: Wakeathon. dancing. warrior game...
3. Goal: to have a good day for once...
4. Dislikes about tomorrow: at the moment nothing..
5. Do you have homework: yes yes i do.

FAVORITES
1. Number: too many
2. Song: too many at the moment depressing ones...
3. Color: Turquoise.
4. Season: Summer-Fall.
5. State/province: Manitoba.

CURRENTLY
1. Thinking about sex? now that you said that yes.
2. Alone while doing this? Yes
3. Missing someone? Yes.
4. Mood: uhh. depressed
5. Wanting: him to want me....

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press Play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the Next button.
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.
7. Don't skip songs.

OPENING CREDITS: Incomplete- Backstreet Boys.

WAKING UP: My Alien- Simple Plan

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL: Getting Into You- Relient K.

FIGHT SONG: Our Story- Ryan Cabrera.

BREAKING UP: Let Go- Kiros.

HAPPINESS: Up Against(black out)- Taking Back Sunday

LIFES OK: The Suffering- Coheed and Cambria

MENTAL BREAKDOWN: Cartoon Heroes- Aqua

DRIVING: Jarhead- Story of the Year

FLASHBACK: My Only One- Plain White T's

GETTING BACK TOGETHER: Addicted- Simple Plan

WEDDING: Photograph- Shiny Toy Guns

BIRTH OF A CHILD: Meant To Fly- Craig Sharpe

DEATH SCENE: Freeway- Hawk Nelson

FUNERAL: Jump- Simple Plan

CREDITS: Be Still My Heart- The Postal Service.

so  it's my birthday.
I'm at school.
It's lame.
um.. 

I got a digital camera
and 2 little miss shirts
they say little miss fun, and little miss star
and i got make up
and luggage tags
and um... a money bag and umm,
la senza gift card.
walmart gift card.
umm. money.
uum. a ring from my parents.
and um. a hair straightener and
uuuum. i dunno.

um. finals are next week.

im gunna fail math.
ugh.

today is lame..

ive been talking to mark



he's sweet.
i love him.
alot.
alot.
alot.
alot.
alot.
like so much...

--xoxo---
stephh;;

1. What is the status of you and the last person you texted? dating:)

2. Whats wrong with you right now? cold and depressed.

3. Do you miss your first love? in a way, I suppose

4. When did you last cry? A while ago.

5. Who do you hate? certain people.

6. What do you want in your life right now? not sure.

7. Are you happy? In a way.

9. What do you smell like? fabric softener and watermelon

10. Drinking? none.

11. What’s your favorite thing to have on your bed? blankets and a pillow?:S

12. If you could change something in your life, what would it be? lets not go there.

13. What do you wear to bed? depends

14. Do you tend to make relationships complicated? apparently

15. How do you feel about the person you got this survey from? it was on blanksurveys...

16. Are you friends with all of your exes? hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha youre funny.

17. What’s something you wish you could understand better? umm. why he's doing this for a "connection"

18. Who's the last person you visited in the hospital? not sure? nana?

26. Whose house did you go to last night? no ones.

27. What about the night before that? um. Civic centre home of the warriors!:)

28. Do you like anyone right now? my bf.

29. Are you bored? mhm

30. What is the last movie you watched? ummm. Snow dogs.

32. What are you excited about? summer.

33. Do you want something you can't have? in a way

35. When you sleep do you dream about heroine addicts? ....

36. What’s on your mind right now? Daniel

37. Who was the last person to make you cry? Josh.

38. Name someone whose name starts with the letter "R"? Ryan Quan

39. Do you care what others think about you? in a way

41. Do you trust people easily? no.

43. Do you think you'll be married in 10 years? yes

44. What do you look forward to in the next 3 months? birthday, christmas.

45. Who was the last person you called? Daniel.

46. Who was the last missed call? Mulberry Estates.

47. What's your ring tone? Big Girls Don't Cry, or Don't Matter

48. Do you plan on moving out within the next year? no.

49. What were you doing at 8pm Friday night? WARRRIOR GAME

50. What happened at 10:00 am today? math

So, I'm at school and I'm done all my work.
Life is pretty... blah right now.
I'm pretty sure I have bipolar and depression. Um..
I'm bored.
Marcus is sitting beside me...
reading this as i write.
Tracey Is sitting on the other side of me doing her portfolio. pretty much having a heartattack
i have dancing tonight.
I dont want to go. ugh.
Work tomorrow morning. Dancing tomorrow afternoon.
Babysitting Matthew and Carson tomorrow night. have to miss the game:(
but they suck. They have ONE point UGH!:(
meh.

So. I'm at famine.
people are doing karaoke.
there is a puppy in here.
there are lots of people in here.

Ericka: " YES! We're all doing Like A Virgin! POP IT IN! "
Paul: " Well. I don't think you're a virgin if you pop it in. "

haha.
good times.
Walking to sev and back.
on the way back, me and Alba decided we make a man. She has a penis, and i have a scrotum.

i'm going to go now.
i want to check myspace.
and i'm sick.

Okay. So

I am like blah.

I have low selfesteem.
I have an extreme jealousy problem.
I was so unenthusiastic the past couple of days.
I have awkward obsessions.
I have too much faith in certain boys...
I hate how I can't let go, even though I should because it would be so much easier.
I have an obsession with Diary Of Jane(acoustic on Jeff's profile..)
I have an awkard obsession with pictures.
I over-analyze things that certain boys say and do.
I have too much faith in love and such.
I don't know how to let go.

and I give up writing this now. because i neeed to study.

or I will fail because I suck.